the ascent

 i'm a mountain climber

though i have only reached one summit


i remember ever step, every agonizing frigid breeze

the rush that filled me as earth as i knew it got smaller


i remember getting to the peak and the bliss that filled me 

i saw the whole world from up there and for a while i believed

the molecules of water that make up my body had found their home

at the top of the troposphere.


as i descended the peak i remember

feeling the sky pull away from me


ive never forgotten about how i danced with the clouds

and the wind,

but i wonder if they have forgotten about me. 


now i am back on the earth, even earth

my limbs and my lungs tired and sore


and somehow the earth i once saw as mountainous

mine to conquer

is flat


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